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Sweetyheadblonde
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Country: United States
Birthday: 3/14/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Singing, anything medically related
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
11/29/2003
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| I don't know why I still have this thing...I never write in it. Hope everyone is having a wonderful summer! I sure am! Give me a call if you're ever in KC! | | |
| Is there a guy that exists who:
1) Is physically capable of providing me with his undivided attention.
2) Would put me as a priority above the "big game".
3) Is okay with the fact that my best friend is my ex boyfriend...and that's not negotiable.
I'm beginning to think he doesn't exist...
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| - Looking BackI am currently trying to decide where SAI fits in my life right now. I've come to a crossroads in my college career where I am being forced to reevaluate my priorities and make cut backs. I'm discovering that many of the medical schools I'm interested in are really big on undergraduate research. Obviously research is very time consuming and making time for it means cutting other things out. Cantoria is on my list of cuts because of the amount of time it requires. SAI is also another big time consumer in my life right now. I know many people feel a deep connection to their SAI sisters...but I'm not one of them. I just can't get into all the touchy-feely we all love each other mind set. It's not me. I'm not saying I hate everyone in SAI. I agree that some of the people I'm closest to at Truman are all a part of SAI and are the reason I joined. But I realized tonight that many of those people are graduating and it's really sad.
I know that many people feel that their high school friendships were out of convenience and their closest friends are now here at Truman. I feel exactly the opposite. My closest friends are the ones I hung out with in high school. This year was a big wake up call for me to find out who my closest friends were. When I was in the hospital awaiting test results to find out if I had cancer or not...it wasn't the women of SAI who were there with me. It was my best friends from high school. I had friends that drove up and back from MU and K State to visit me and check up on me. I had friends on the coasts who couldn't be there and called to let me know they were praying for me. I had complete strangers in Kansas City who came up to my dad and said "I just wanted you to know that I'm praying for your daughter." My family didn't even know who these people were, but somehow they knew about what we were going through. I just found it really interesting that I had total strangers who were concerned about me, but (with few exceptions) the sisterhood that always raves about how much everyone loves and cares about everyone wasn't a part of my support system. And that's fine...I'm not pointing fingers or wanting sympathy or anything. Its just that after going through such an eye opening experience I find it really hard to buy into the whole sisterhood thing.
I feel that SAI is a great group of fun-loving girls that all bring different talents and experiences together. And I really do like the girls...and I'm really going to miss all of the girls who are graduating. But that's about as far as it goes for me. I don't have the magical sisterhood bond going on. And it makes it really hard to want to keep SAI in my life when I have so many opportunities I have to turn down because of it.
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| I realized I hadn't updated about all the events of last semester in awhile. Here's the short version:
I have another calcification. They've decided that they're not really tumors so much as my muscle is just turning into bone. Why? No one knows. They don't know if this is just temporary or if this will be an ongoing problem in my life. At this point, the only thing I can do is break up the bone. So when it heals it will heal in the extended position and it won't be as tight and painful. It sounds great in theory, but when you start thinking about the events that must occur to break up bone...not so exciting.
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| I was thinking about something tonight...
In high school German class, my friend Colin and I would always talk about how we were going to have kool-aid parties that weekend. We never actually did, but it was just this ongoing joke. He'd mention that his parents were going to be out of town...I'd respond with something to the effect of hey we should have a kool-aid party...then we'd elaborate. Frau W would always give us scolding looks during these conversations and I never really understood why until tonight. I was replaying the situations in my head and it occurred to me...
...I'm pretty sure I was the only one involved who literally thought we were talking about a kool-aid party. Way to go Alysia!
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